Doing it like Abba and knowing me knowing you.. aha....

It was over potty on one weekday afternoon that I had an epiphany.

Potty to me is heaven since I am mostly constipated. In the literal sense of the word. But coffee and Macs do it for me sometimes. Unaided, it takes weeks. I had The Ridz accompany me to a friendly local neighbourhood doctor some weeks ago, only for him to snigger at my lack of bowel movements. Even with his lack of professionalism and having to address his concerns about when I did potty while grimacing through the discomfort, I knew he was right. I spent the rest of the afternoon chowing down on Macs while The Ridz and I marveled at the lack of a minimum wage. He had called an in house maid service and we paid 2 maids 50 bucks to do what was humanly impossible for 3 able bodied males do over a year... cleaning up the apartment.

I had my Macs and tried some cycling with my legs in the air, as advised in the pamphlet entitled "Sembelit" which I found at the clinic some days earlier.

Potty has come and gone. I have been to a city and a beach in recent weeks and bound for another adventure this weekend for a friend's hen party. Its theme is Retro Punk 80s.

People have envied me. Elevated me to almost princess fairy tale like status knowing that I am currently "chillin' mc chillin". But to say I have not been productive would be a lie. The converse is true.

I have learnt more about myself, attained more clarity in these past few weeks that I ever had.

I learnt how I have to get over myself and that there is a higher purpose/meaning to this life than self gratification.

I learnt how to count blessings and be grateful even at times when it is hardest.

I understood that it is only when one introspects and asks, that one realizes that the questions grants responsibility for action, but more importantly change.

Right now, my compass is still finding True North. But I know, it is pointing to the right direction.

My epiphany saved me. Cleansed and clear, I am. And though I cannot say I am no longer afraid, I have my haven. It involves mat and compass but no traveling required.

But I still can not do regular potty.