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My relationship with The Ridz has evolved. I wouldn't say it "ended" because that would be too conventional, and I, well, try to make things as snazzy as it can.

We have reached a point where we realized the technicalities overwhelm reality. He was not ready and I was not ready to have a little more faith and give in.

So we did what we thought was best. Change.

We are no longer a couple. We decided that it would be best that I would stop waiting and for him to stop trying to "make this thing work". He had tried so hard. And so have I. But sometimes we just got to let things flow. Even if it means that we head towards different direction.

Things change.

Yet from what I have learnt over the past few days, adjusting and realigning myself to the new relationship, some things will always remain the same.

I am still happy.

I have become less selfish and finally giving the relationship the space and time that it needs.. and so if it happens, it happens.

So long have I guided my Life around goals and plans. I am aggressive and prefer taking the lead than following one. And then I learnt that Life is not a competition. There is no prize. The ending has already been written and though this does not eliminate my freedom of choice, it helps guide how I should cope with the decisions that have been made, by me or by others.

So I decided to be happy, be less selfish and truly enjoy my time with the people who matter.

Which is why I am still here. Not to hold on to the threads.. but to slowly let go. And quietly understanding that though that's the hardest thing to do, it is when it's hard that it is probably the best thing to do.