When the dust settles what is left

i haven't been writing because i though that once formal education ended there is no need to impress your peers or anyone else about your ability to read and write. But im writing nevertheless, for fear that the events happening to me may never be documented and immortalized on paper.. for all to see perhaps? Damn you voyeurs!

I had a good last term. I did what i wanted to do, enjoyed my classes and the company of my professors. Damn i enjoyed International Law.. makes me one to set up my own country and trade barriers. i hope my friends who have access to this blog would know that i often think of them and the distance that maims physical interaction, im glad that i have the company of cotton pajamas at my laptop though. I will see you guys soon.

I am job hunting. decided that im not going to do front line .. ie sales.. and prefer to do more back office work. i figured i wouldnt want to have to physically meet people and convince them that my products were better than someone else's, especially when i dont think it is and especially if i have to go round knocking on their doors. Im too lazy.. so sales is out,

ive learnt more about life these past few months then i have in the the 15 years or so of formal education. I used to be distracted by the macro. letting myself be blinded by big neon signboards with captions that read "TRUE LOVE" or "BRIGHT CAREER PROSPECTS" or "HAPPILY EVER AFTER" only to realise that they are all bullshit.

I learnt to be patient. To take my time. To give people their time. To respect what is truly important to others and to accept. Ive always been pushy. My motto was that i would only make myself happy first, and not others. I will not compromise. I will not jeopardize my own happiness. it becomes a problem when you realize, like a cliche love song from a 90s boyband, that you feel "incomplete".

You have to give. Sometimes you will receive. And when you give. Give wholeheartedly. Sometimes you will receive. Then that's enough.

Anyway, im thinking of getting a part time job that pays really well with very short hours and has high job satisfaction.